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Selfies are the best!

There are husbands who know all the photogenic angles of their wife better than the lady herself. This rare species of husbands louuuv photographing their jaana, shona, or babe, and make such photoshoots delightful. They look for opportunities to click their jaana, shona, or babe. A shona need ask only once and they jump up with the camera, aiming to please. Sometimes, a jaana need not even ask! They make the wife-next-door look like a Femina cover page model.

And then, there’s my husband dearest. My Darling Poochikoo Koochipoo (MDPK). Fifteen years of marriage and maan-obhimaan (drama/roothna-manana) later, MDPK volunteers to click my pictures on Durga Pujo and Kaali Pujo. What do you know, he even insists! Oh joy, MDPK even gets the camera angle right! Just as I wonder how to contain such an outpouring of joy, there, it happens.

Thirty years from now, I’m sure MDPK won’t feel the need to click my pictures from a mandatory distance of two kilometres! Every damn thing in the surrounding should get a better focus than her seems like his revenge mantra, I tell you. Just that thirty years later, I’ll be 70 if I’m fortunate enough to live. I suspect by then, I’d insist he maintain that two-kilometre distance to avoid close-ups of my wrinkles! Coming back to the recent past, that is, pandal-hopping and a quick photo session on Kaali Pujo night.

MDPK: Better look at your pictures right now, don’t crib later.

We both look in silence… that stretches into… let’s just say, longer silence. He takes whole of two minutes to pick on the ‘somethin’s wrong, Bubba’ vibe.

Finally, wiser but with a blank face, MDPK: What?

Zooming in in slow-motion, me: The angle is good, but doesn’t this look blurry to you?

Zooming in further, MDPK: That’s ok, no one’s gonna zoom in to your picture to look at you.

Silence all around.

With a dubious look at my face, MDPK: Will they?

Maintaining record-breaking calm, me: Will who what?

With an expression best described as a hybrid of ‘thoroughly irritated’ and ‘utterly uninterested’ but ‘fearing the repercussions,’ MDPK: Will whoever… anyone… zoom in? O forget it, just pose again.

Unsure if I should be offended at the dazzling expression and the award-winning tone, my forehead crinkles momentarily. I could take this opportunity to cancel the shoot and delightfully sulk for what’s left of the night and the whole of next day. Has to be a split-second decision though. I smoothen my crinkles, swipe a part of my hair from back to front, go back to pose, and smile. I am shameless! 😂

Result after the fiasco 😁

– Bijita Dhar

Lord Jagannath at my friend Vinayak’s home

During our childhood, every February, Baba diligently took a city bus to the Nashik railway station. The commute took an hour either way, but that didn’t discourage him. He stood in long queues to book train tickets to Bengal for our annual vacation, which began in April. Baba generally spent a couple of weeks with us in Bengal before heading back to Nashik. Maa and us kids stayed longer and visited family near and far. A generous portion of our holidays was spent at my maternal grandparents’ home.

My maternal grandparents headed a joint family spanning four generations in Ichchapur. Their two-storeyed white house, almost a mansion, was built in a C-shape with sharp turns instead of curves. From the railway station, a two-minute walk down a brick-cobbled street led to their home. Ancient houses with quaint blue doors and shuttered (louvre) windows lined one side of the narrow road. The other side led to a beautiful pond. Along the pond, Krishnachura, Radhachura, Banyan, and Bokul trees formed colorful canopies.

During a vacation in my teenage years, as Maa oiled my long hair, she told me a story. When I was a toddler, we were visiting Ichchapur one summer. One day, the family heard loud cries of “Jai Jagannath!” accompanied by conch blows and ululations coming from the road. It was the auspicious day of the Ratha Jatra. Maa scooped me up and rushed outside the main entrance of the house. Her siblings and cousins joined her on the verandah, which had the hallmark red-oxide floor with thick black lines running along its borders.

Children from the neighborhood entered our lane in a small procession, dragging a beautifully decorated miniature Ratha (chariot) carrying the deities Balabhadra, Subhadra, and Jagannath. The trio was taken out for the traditional annual ride that mimicked the Ratha Jatra in Puri in a humble, sweet way. The children carried Bhog (food offered to the deities) for sharing with devotees met along the way. Passersby paused, and residents from the neighborhood came out of homes to honor the procession. Devotees prayed with folded hands, collected the Bhog, and handed out small amounts of money, typically coins, as donations.

Remembering something suddenly, Maa rushed inside the house with me. Quickly grabbing a pair of scissors, she cut a lock of my hair. Carrying my lock and me, Maa made it outside just in time as the procession reached our house. Descending on the street, Maa bent to place my hair in front of the first wheel of the Ratha, then stood aside, making way. The wheel soon rolled over my hair, followed by the second wheel. The divine trio blessed us as the Ratha moved away, surrounded by the merrymaking of the devotees.

“And that’s why you have long hair,” Maa finished her story. The younger me couldn’t comprehend the connection between the length of my hair and Jagannath’s Ratha. Mulling over the story for a while, I asked Maa for an explanation. In her younger days, she had heard a saying—if the wheels of Jagannath’s Ratha rollover a lock of your hair, you receive His blessings. Your hair will grow, its length matching the distance covered by the Ratha! I have held on to this story ever since; it never fails to bring a smile of gratitude. After all, the saying proved to be true for me!

I got my ankle-length tresses chopped to waist length at Habibs in 2008. Sitting on a revolving chair, when I let loose my bun, my hair cascaded down and lay folded on the floor. The staff and other customers dropped their work to gape. Someone rushed to the second floor of the salon, another ran outside. I heard cries, and in a couple of minutes, strangers from the second floor and neighboring shops poured in to witness the wonder. Thoroughly embarrassed by then, I wished I’d dissolve into thin air. Inquiries about my brand of hair oil and shampoo followed the appreciations. In several different ways and by more than one stylist, I was asked if I’m sure I want a haircut. What an unforgettable experience!

Back then, we weren’t click-happy. Moreover, I’m not used to flaunting my hair. On my insistence, the husband did click a picture of the ankle-length hair before heading off to Habibs. That picture is buried somewhere in a hard drive that lies somewhere! For now, sharing two beautiful shots to represent the sweet history I share with Jagannath.

2007: Mid-calves hair length; clicked in the garden of our parental home in Nashik
Durga Puja 2012: Knee-length hair; I’m in a peacock-hued silk saree from Nalli

I am grateful to my sister for several reasons—clicking and preserving these shots, digging in the archives to locate these, and sending these across. Gratitude to my friend Vinayak for letting me use the picture of Lord Jagannath.

Post #1 in the Triology: https://colorsofatulip.wordpress.com/2021/07/10/the-divine-gift/

Picture credit: Google

On the wings of time as life flies by
We meet people; some leave, some stand by.

She met someone years ago
And lost her heart at a go.
The chemistry was undeniable
The bond was, she thought, unbreakable.

He gifted her priceless affection
Drenched in drops of tender passion.
He shared the goodness of his heart
Wrapped in gold, 24 carat!

He made her evolve and feel emotions
She knew not existed – hah! She and her notions!
Willing to walk with him through each arduous turn
She did all she could, not wanting to return.

Moving the mountain alone was tough
Determined she was, conquest she would love.
But as fate would have it, she was chasing a mirage
Time momentarily stopped, signifying the end of her Raj…

It was an end too soon – reckless, unfathomable, and vain
And the remnants were only lasting pain.
After his departure, she realized she had dreams
Her subconscious didn’t previously reveal, lest those were whims.

Slowly, surely, the dreams paid her visit
Each brought her wisdom, to which there was no limit.
Dreams of a shared existence, each day of solace
Awaking next to him in an intimate stance.

Watching his serene face as he would sleep
Knowledge of his presence always for the keep.
A glance, a touch, a caress was only needed
As she unfolded each tender petal in his arms, feeling completely protected.

It couldn’t get better, the rhythm filled with grace
Coyly she would steal a look, eyes fondling his face.
Equal passion and matching devotion would reflect
This with contentment she would detect.

Life would be complete with events sweet and sour
While she thanked destiny for each passing hour.
In his dark eyes she saw a spark
Revealing a life unborn, pulsating and stark…

Wonder and wisdom filled her heart
Whilst pain and grief ripped her apart.
In the light of the spark she discovered shed traces of girlhood
Having emerged surprisingly, donning the dignity of womanhood.

It was the best gift one could get
If only she could share it with the one she could not forget…
From the ruins of a relationship that was never to be
All that remained were words, aplenty.

And as she let him go, she offered a bow
On her knees, head bent low.
She tendered teardrops on his feet
Forgiveness for the pain caused she could plead.

She remains grateful for the care bestowed
For the gentle teachings and the warmth showered
For the witty teasings & feelings straight from the heart
For he made her feel like the Queen of his heart!

As she remembers him on this special day
She lets him depart finally today.
Christening that journey ‘Serendipity’
She liberates her dreams with no pity…

Through this message she wants to convey
Forget him she shall no way.
Dear he shall remain
Till the last breath she can attain.

Thanking him for the memories he helped make
She wishes him Happy Birthday with an imaginary cake.
Etched he shall remain in her mind and heart
For that’s what he wished after choosing to depart.

– Bijita Dhar

Kisi zamane mein thirakte ye kadam bhatakte hain aaj

Tere jaane ke baad khush rehne ki wajah ki talaash mein…

– Bijita Dhar

Muse: My Daughter

Mere kadam

Photo credit: Google

Notice how rain slants around street lights,
How shimmery wet roads look squeaky clean.
Pools and puddles reflect light from vehicles,
And plants look a happy dark green.

When it rains at night, open your doors,
Let the breeze in through the windows.
Stand still and breathe in petrichor,
Close your eyes, let the breeze cleanse your core.

Put your palms out, let raindrops caress your skin,
Step outside, soak it in, let it heal wounds that go deep.
Wait until entire pain oozes out of your pores,
And tears unite with raindrops until they stop on their own.

Let the rain wipe the slate of your memories clean,
So when tomorrow comes, you can afresh begin…

– Bijita Dhar